I swear I think that if you have ever had a converstion with me... I am your good luck charm b/c cleary it seems that everyone I know either has just had a child or pregnant. Seems as though everytime I log into facebook someone is announcing a pregnancy...it's been the girl that is constantly having issues with her DH, the chick that already has 3 kids, the one with a non-potty trained toddler, HS chums with due dates around my supposedly due date or even close friends. I never thought of myself as the jealous type, but in these cases....I am totally jealous and *GASP*, dare I say it very, very bitter.
I have a close friend of mine that was there every step of the way with me during my miscarriage, but a month or so afterwards, I noticed she faded off a little bit....reason being she found out she was preggers. I appreciate her falling back, but finding out via facebook was a blower. We had been saying for the last six months "How cool it would be to be preggers together!!!" Since finding out about her pregnancy I have limited all conversations to text and e-mail. I hate being this bitter person.
Soon after M/C I went to a outing where every mom in there was pregnant or carrying a newborn carseat. My head was literally spinning, until a friend of mine walked in and we began to chat and I discovered that she had just had a chemical pregnancy. As bad as I felt for her, I latched on to her and felt elated that I was not the only one going through this...Fast forward to last night, she announces via facebook that she is in her 2nd trimester. So there goes that buddy :(
I also have a friend that was literally 3 weeks further along than me, she is one of the nicest friends but I just could not power up enough strength to make it to her shower recently, I felt horrible about it and I know I should be past all this now...but I just did not want to spend a beautiful saturday afternoon in my personal hell. So I opted out and decide that I will send gifts at a later date.
Not to mention all the other people that are posting sonogram pics as announcements, updating statuses to reflect how far along they are in the labor process. There are a few girls that announced pregnancy soon after I m/c and it makes me really sad to see pics of them and their growing bellies. It's just a reminder of where I shoud be.
I do have a little ray of hope that I am not a totally "Bitter Betty" when my BFF called as soon as his wife POAS to announce their impending pregnancy, I was geniunely happy for them....so I know I am a work in progress and slowly but surely I will be there.
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