Bloatation Device

I haven't been on in a while, really nothing exciting/new to report. Had my 31st birthday a couple weeks ago and had a lot of catch-up conversations with a lot of people that called that day. Most avoided the "are you preggers yet?" Which I was very happy to oblige, since we still aren't ready to tell folks. One really close friend did ask, and I did tell her, but I swore her to secrecy. We still haven't told the family, waiting until Father's Day weekend, so we can tell them personally.

I am still checking for spotting when I go to the restroom, but I'm not staring the toilet paper down like before. My symptoms have been all over the place, boobs are off and on sore---still only sore in the a.m., nausea is really bad in the evening---but not every night, gagging when I brush my teeth in the a.m.---but not every morning and I am very tired during the day---some days more than others. The first part of last week, I felt like I had been hit by a truck and run over, I literally felt like crap for three days straight all day/ everyday(HOORAY!!!! I am really pregnant), then suddenly I felt fine(of course that freaked me out) I had a really bad sinus headache over the wknd and what I normally take for it, is not authorized during pregnancy...so I laid in bed for two days straight and I told my gummybear "Mommy is going to fight through this brutal headache without meds, so I need you to keep growing strong for me...DEAL???, okay DEAL!!!" Oh, and did I mention at night, I look about 5 months pregnant!!!! My waistline has totally disappeared and I am a full out Bloatation Device. Only two pair of my pants fit, and that's only cause they are low rise, but they are really only buttoned up when I am out in public.

My very first appointment with the doctor is in T minus 7 days. Needless to say, I am freaking out. I know I am going to be a nervous wreck before the U/S. I remember walking into my DS's ultrasound with not a care in the world, b/c I knew in pregnancy at the 8 week plus mark, the next step is hearing a strong heartbeat. Because that's what happens, you get pregnant and 9 months later you have a beautiful baby. The MC and internet has truly stripped all that innocence away and I am freaking out over EVERYTHING. I really just want to get to this day and hear that wonderful heartbeat. So unless something major happens before then, I will be back to report a very strong heartbeat and post pics of the gummybear in exactly 7 days from now. I will also be immediately purchasing a bella band and my first pair of maternity jeans...because I can't take this uncomfortable feeling much longer.